Moods

 Losing a child to death brings a myriad of emotions ...      

all complicated ... all different ... all difficult.

Silent Grief speaks today about ... moods ... 

If there is one thing that those who have lost a child know about it's the moods that can change in an instant. One moment we can seem fairly calm and in control, and the next moment we are so off-balance that we are ready to climb into bed, pull the covers up over our head and never again come out! Anything -- and I do mean ANYTHING -- can set us off. It can be a certain smell in the kitchen, walking down an aisle in the grocery store, hearing the church choir sing, throwing a pebble across the lake, or just laying down to take a nap. Sometimes we question our sanity when these moods hit so suddenly and from out of nowhere. The truth is what we have experienced -- the loss of our child -- is both traumatizing and shattering. There is not one logical reason why this loss had to happen, and our minds are constantly trying to piece things together to make sense from all of this pain. So, there will be "off days", "off hours", and sometimes "off minutes" -- when life spirals out of control and we feel like we can't take the pain anymore. We want answers, but deep inside we know that we will never get answers. What we want most of all is our child, and even though our minds know our child is really gone, triggers come along that throw us into a place where we think -- maybe, just maybe this is the day my child is coming back again! Our moods are simply a natural reaction to an unnatural loss -- the worst loss anyone can endure -- the loss of a child!

Father, Yahweh, I pray today for Silent Grief, and all who have lost a child. or a grandchild.  I pray that You will hold them as close to Your heart as You hold the child they love and lost.

Father, bless them today.

xtnyoda, shalomed